John P. Lasater IV

Meditation on Painting, Part 1

"Day Roars In", 11x14, Oil, Private Collection "Day Roars In", 11x14, Oil, Private Collection

Painting is a beautiful ghost

And I am her stooge;

An eye and a hand in service to a flirt, an apparition.

 

[-from my own writings]

 

What is painting, and why do I do it? I’ve been seeking answers since the beginning, but never as much as now, twenty years into it.

 

Sometimes I ask others the same question. The variety of awkward and syrupy answers is funny. Try it. Try it with yourself. If right now you were in a broadcast interview with Barbara Walters and she wanted to know why you spend your day or your spare time putting paint on canvas, what would you say?

 

Write it down. Listen to yourself. Maybe your truest answer is “I don’t know.”

 

There have been times I desperately wanted to sell work, and the pitches I gave buyers were sappy. Why hurt my conscience like that? If the only answers sound pathetic, maybe it’s time to reevaluate. I owe it to myself to know “me” better.

 

Can artists live a half-hearted life? Absolutely. Painting is difficult, and so, like in all occupations, there is a wide road that leads to mediocrity. What keeps me going is knowing myself and giving my best effort each day.

 

Here are some of the truths about painting that keep it real:

 

Painting involves bringing order and chaos together in balance so to challenge and satisfy the artist soul. More simply put, painting utilizes my natural attraction to drawing, design and color, and ultimately gives me a calm satisfaction even if I’m unstable in the process.

 

Painting is visual language with which I can convey observed information or imaginary thoughts. I am learning a language! There are people on the other side of the world who upon seeing my painting would feel communion with me because of what is shared through visual language.

 

Painting is work. It’s difficult work and it’s good. As my aesthetic taste grows, the struggle grows. Sometimes so big that it threatens to swallow me up. If I wanted my years of painting to be peaceful, I would never go to a great museum. I would stay in a bubble and never compare myself.

 

Painting is bread. It allows me to support my family because occasionally I find people that connect with my work and want to buy it. I don’t give them a fake sales pitch, I just wait for the right ones to come along.

 

Do you like hearing it put in such a reductionistic way or does it make you uncomfortable? Is the choice to paint truly as romantic as some artists explain it? It’s worth facing these questions.

 

Stay on the narrow road and pour yourself into good, honest reasons. Society needs to hear the real you. It makes us all better people and culture grows deep roots in the soil of sincerity.

 

[I’m currently working on a book on the philosophy of painting. I write to learn. Any input on what I’ve written will be very helpful. Thanks.]

 



Comments

13 Responses to Meditation on Painting, Part 1

You write beautifully. You have some insights in this piece that are very helpful to me as I struggle to figure out if painting is still something that I want to do. Look forward to your book.

Thanks for the insight John 👩‍🎨

John, I love your work and I feel blessed that I can count you among my artist friends. Painting is very hard work and you make it seem effortless. Hugs!

Socrates argued that in order to be wise, one must know oneself. Calvin argued that one couldn't truly know God without knowing oneself and wouldn't, couldn't truly know oneself without knowing God. I think your self-evaluation/examination is healthy and allows you to paint in a manner that lets others see your heart. When people see your heart in your work, they are drawn to it. When you share your heart for painting and your self knowledge, in your writings, you help others that might be struggling to find their heart/voice. Great, insightful piece.

I will buy a copy of your book when it is available. I'm not sure about my own obsession to paint. But I have been obsessed with it since I was very young. Before I was ever aware of the -five and dime” watercolors in tin boxes I coveted crayons. I constantly created collages from old catalogues discarded from relatives on pieces of cardboard boxes. My first experience in painting was in 7th grade art class in the Van Buren, Arkansas school system. Pete Howard was the teacher. I had found my dream. I am drawn in to myself when I read your thoughts. The words -natural attraction” in your second sentence zooms in on my motivation to paint. I am attracted to the placement of shapes and colors, movement and emotion that can evolve from a two dimensional image. Painting truly is a visual language and it has no boundaries. I can neither read nor speak a word of Russian but I have no problem interpreting a Russian impressionistic painting. The messages are limitless in painting. My intimacy with God is the only thing that surpasses the depth of emotion I have felt in painting. For me painting is a spiritual experience. I feel compelled to paint. However this has not been limited to my own personal painting. I have literally been rendered speechless even breathless by many paintings ( not my own) . Sons long for their fathers approval. I continue to paint and want most of all to excel in painting to gain His approval. -On earth as it is in Heaven”

Thank you all for the comments. Sounds like something strikes home with this post. Lets keep rushing past the frontlines of discouragement, so we can face the bigger battle of growing!

Always good to read your thoughts. I had things to say, but realized that I've written about it already on my site. So, I'll just add that knowing my purpose for painting has been the key to perseverance and growth -

not talent (I'm average),
not knowledge (I'm not well-read),
not material surplus

Purpose has been the light that revealed the path. Staying on that path means pushing past branches, stepping through streams, and sometimes waiting, but the end will be so much better than a good painting.

Seth, great to hear from you. Israel Hershberg told me that he thinks there's nothing more boring than God-given talent. I like thinking about that...means we all have a duty to love and work at what we do, and it will show.

As we struggle to grow, seek recognition and support our families with our artistic pursuits, we should never forget our great good fortune. Creative people have been blessed by their creator with the need produce great works. Greatness, however, is at best a relative term defined by the creative's audience.

Some receive greater gifts than others, but all are driven by the same need. Musicians, painters, carpenters, poets, sculptors, lawyers, bakers, scientists, accountants, teachers: all of these and more are creatives that bring vital energy to society.

Even those in the most mundane of professions, have on occasion, given us a glimpse of their creative genius. It's helpful to value everyone as equal creatives, that we who consider ourselves artists, can learn from. Listen to everyone who comments on your work. Consider their point of view. By all means, study the Masters, and learn from your contemporaries. Equally, give regard to those you might wrongly consider non-creatives. Their viewpoint may spur your greatest growth. It may also be the most painful, and possibly the most honest.

John, I am excited to know there is a book in the works. Your writings are very eye-opening. My sweet husband text me this quote on one of my discouraged days;
"" DON'T think about making art, just get it done. Let everyone else deside if it is good or bad, whether they love it or hate it. While they are deciding, make more are.""
Andy Warhol.

Why paint

To solve a puzzle, a challenge. How do I do this?

This is horrible. I'll just set it aside till later or never touch it again.

Wait, How do I fix it?

That's better. I can make it into something now.

Answers

Satisfaction, pleasure

Hi John, For me painting is about love.

Here is a quote that describes is very well for me.

There is a vitality, a life force, an energy, a quickening that is translated through you into action, and because there is only one of you in all of time, this expression is unique. And if you block it, it will never exist through any other medium and it will be lost. The world will not have it. It is not your business to determine how good it is nor how valuable nor how it compares with other expressions. It is your business to keep it yours clearly and directly, to keep the channel open. You do not even have to believe in yourself or your work. You have to keep yourself open and aware to the urges that motivate you. Keep the channel open. ... No artist is pleased. [There is] no satisfaction whatever at any time. There is only a queer divine dissatisfaction, a blessed unrest that keeps us marching and makes us more alive than the others
Martha Graham

I also think of a quote from Paul in Romans 1::20

20 For since the creation of the world God's invisible qualities—his eternal power and divine nature—have been clearly seen, being understood from what has been made, so that people are without excuse.

The creation is a reflection of God's eternal power and divine nature.

Painting the beauty of his creation can be a form of worship for me.

Why we do things is almost as important as what we do.

Hope you enjoy the gift of painting.

Andre Lucero

Thanks for the thoughtful comments Brenda, Becky and Andre! I learn from all of your perspectives.


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